Well I lived. High School is over and I am on to bigger, better things. Or so they say. I have a little over a month until I start my life in an apartment. And College. The beginning of the end of my structured life. Everything until now has been set in stone by the State. Have to go to school. Now, college is my choice, but they say what I do for the next 4 years. After that, who knows.

YAY! School is almost out! I'm almost a senior! I guess I'm old then. All my cool friends will be juniors! And I get new squashmore friends. I'm pretty excited for marching band to start. I still know nothing about anything i will be playing, but I'm pretty excited. This week has been awesome. Orchestra concert, then out on a date for Ice cream, then the Banquet, and a really boring Senior awards night that was redeemed by going to someones house to play a game. :)Then Camping with my family on Friday night, then Saturday spending the day with my family at the Scandinavian Festival. Then as the total climax watching The Village with some friends! It has been a great week. I'm passing all my classes. (it was close there for a while in math.) OK enough for now. I get to go put my laundry away. Joy...

Well!
I am incredibly sick of winter. It is now March. that means it should be getting WARMER!!! I want to wear shorts, sandles and lighter shirts. I want to be outside SO much. I'm also getting sick... which isn't much fun by any stretch of the imagination. It is too hard to make up school, so I get to sit and suffer through it. *yawn* oh well! One of the glories of living through High School.

Ok here is a list of some of the greatest things on earth.

Books
Piano
Jazz. Good jazz. Especially High school Jazz band Jazz.
Chocolate-Peanut butter Ice-cream (three anti-depressants all in one!)
Ballroom dancing-Fun to watch, even better to do.
Wind
Prom Dresses (only modest ones though...) :)
Gentlemen
Route 66 (never been on it, but Its my dream)
Camping in a tent
Chacos
Laughing so hard it hurts to move
Seeing your best friends happy, even if it hurts you.
Friends being silly with a hose.
Hearing your favorite song on the radio, even though it makes you cry
Getting sympathy and advice from one of your greatest friends, when they don’t know how much they are helping you.
Seeing a new dad with his wife and baby out walking.
Writing something worth being proud of.
Playing a song with your orchestra so well that your conductor has no negative comments.

I live in a whirled state of confusion. It is easier to just make myself a shell, enjoy the strongest surges of feeling, and just block out all the small swells than to try to handle everything. There is no real way to make everyone happy. No universal compromise. My joy comes from both solitude and friends. Things make me angry that should not. It is all very strange. I just cannot wait for school to start so that things get some semblance of normality.