Thursday, August 03, 2006

Ok here is a list of some of the greatest things on earth.

Jazz. Good jazz. Especially High school Jazz band Jazz.
Chocolate-Peanut butter Ice-cream (three anti-depressants all in one!)
Ballroom dancing-Fun to watch, even better to do.
Prom Dresses (only modest ones though...) :)
Route 66 (never been on it, but Its my dream)
Camping in a tent
Laughing so hard it hurts to move
Seeing your best friends happy, even if it hurts you.
Friends being silly with a hose.
Hearing your favorite song on the radio, even though it makes you cry
Getting sympathy and advice from one of your greatest friends, when they don’t know how much they are helping you.
Seeing a new dad with his wife and baby out walking.
Writing something worth being proud of.
Playing a song with your orchestra so well that your conductor has no negative comments.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

I live in a whirled state of confusion. It is easier to just make myself a shell, enjoy the strongest surges of feeling, and just block out all the small swells than to try to handle everything. There is no real way to make everyone happy. No universal compromise. My joy comes from both solitude and friends. Things make me angry that should not. It is all very strange. I just cannot wait for school to start so that things get some semblance of normality.